grandma

I just found out my grandma has metastatic brain cancer. I can't even process this, I don't know what it means. I have a lot of learning to do. If anyone that reads this knows anything about this type of cancer or can point me to some resources, I'd appreciate any info. In the meantime I'm going to google it and see what I can find. I haven't called my brother or sister yet. I'm in shock and I so don't want this to happen, it's like I'm not even letting myself feel it or worry about it, if I keep myself on autopilot then maybe I can deal with this without falling apart. Maybe.